The funny thing about blogging is I'm always trying to find the perfect balance between being honest and not treating these pages as my personal journal. In a world of endless Instagram filters and witty captions, it is easy to get swept away in your online identity. Everything I've written on this site has been honest and I feel has been a perfect reflection of who I really am, but the thing is I have recently struggled with who that is. I don't think I need to share every detail of my life, but I also don't think it is fair for me to come on here and pretend everything is perfect through smiling photographs and encouraging paragraphs. I found myself editing the original pictures for this post, and feeling that everything was all wrong. I felt like a fraud. So here I am coming to you, my loyal readers, being honest. Life is not okay right now, but it will be.
I believe life is a series of mountains and valleys, and there is something to be learned in each stage. Imagine if our lives were always on top, what would we ever look up to? Who would we work towards becoming? Those moments are to be treasured, but not held on to. They make us stronger people and allow us to grow, so when we finally do reach that peak we can truly appreciate how we got there. During this current time in a valley I have learned the importance of being vulnerable with my loved ones. So this is me being vulnerable with you.
You may have noticed I haven't been blogging as much as usual, and that has been a product of me trying to figure out a new chapter in my life. I'm going to take a few more weeks off to sort through life with out the pressures of "keeping up appearances". Don't worry I won't be gone long, and this blog is not going to morph into an evanescence song when I return. Sometimes all you need is a new adventure to get going in the right direction. I will be headed to California this week to see some family, and I believe it is just the adventure I need.